r18novel Chapter 16 I will withdraw from Quanxing
Chapter 16 I will withdraw from Quanxing
Thinking about this...
Xia He lay down, looking at the moonlight overhead: "Look at yourself now, sigh, I'm really stupid..."
"Zhang Lingyu, what did you do wrong by being with me? Is it worth torturing yourself like this..."
She knew it very well.
He had a bad day after that.
Zhang Lingyu lowered her head: "Because you've changed! You've become a demon of the Quanxing! You've become a... a..."
"A cheap slut? Or a whore?"
Xia He laughed: "Ha... As expected of a noble descendant of the Celestial Master's Mansion, you're ashamed to utter such words..."
"There's something I'd like to hear you say."
"..."
"What is it?"
Xia He spoke softly, "After you left, I went to look for you. I went to Longhu Mountain and arrived at the entrance of the Celestial Master's Mansion. The young Taoist boy guarding the gate said you were there... but you didn't see me."
"I hadn't joined Quanxing yet, had I?"
Zhang Lingyu's pupils dilated, and she avoided eye contact.
She was right. He was indeed at the Celestial Master's Mansion that time, and he didn't come out to see her because he had just learned that he was no longer a virgin and could only cultivate "Yin Five Thunders"...
Practicing the "Yang Five Thunders" was his goal for many years, but it ultimately became a pipe dream, which caused him great pain...
I don't know how to face her anymore.
"About that... I'm sorry."
After struggling for a long time, Zhang Lingyu finally spoke up. Right is right, and wrong is wrong; he wasn't going to deny it: "But that can't be a reason for you to join Quanxing. You can go back to Tengshan, or you can go to the company. You have many paths to choose from."
"But all I want is you..."
But you abandoned me.
Only then did pain appear on Xia He's face, as if she had returned to that afternoon when she was turned away: "You clearly said that you loved me too, that you didn't care about my abilities, and that you even wanted to go back to your sect to ask your master for permission..."
But you never came back.
Over the years, she had been inquiring about Zhang Lingyu and already knew the reason. She didn't blame him and could understand the pain in his heart.
But at the same time, she also attributed all of this to her own abilities, because the secret techniques of the Fujiyama School brought out "her truest self," which meant...
Is she a "slut" at heart?
"You know, it was on that day, on the train back, that I met Dou Mei. She said she could help me get rid of my pain. She also said... no matter who I am, I am an ordinary person in Quanxing and have the greatest freedom."
"And as it turns out, she was right. I did have a lot of freedom after joining the Quanxing Sect. As for the 'demon' you mentioned..."
Xia He smiled.
He showed a helpless expression.
"Believe it or not, even after joining Quanxing, I tried to control my abilities, covering myself with hats, masks, gloves, and big coats. I tried everything to reduce attention, but what was the result?"
"Even those righteous people who have never seen me can call me a demon without hesitation as soon as they hear about my abilities. But who would have thought that those talents that are open, honorable, and sought after are not distributed according to anyone's wishes..."
"Isn't that right?"
Upon hearing this, Zhang Lingyu was momentarily speechless, but he quickly recalled what he had heard over the years: "What about those people you hurt, or even killed?"
His face darkened.
"You seem to have misunderstood something. Desire is something people create themselves. People are afraid to face their own desires, so they shift the blame to the source of those desires. You always say I've caused a lot of killing, but isn't that how this circle is?"
"The company has caused quite a few victims; does that mean they aren't 'monsters'?"
"this……"
Zhang Lingyu was speechless, because from an objective point of view, this statement did make sense, and besides, she herself could not control her own abilities.
"and you……"
He wanted to say, "Then can't you avoid crowded places?" but he couldn't bring himself to say it, because he knew...
She is a person.
These are not livestock that can be confined at will.
Seeing Zhang Lingyu remain silent, Xia He took a deep breath and spoke again: "So, Zhang Lingyu, tell me honestly, do you, like those others, believe that I, having awakened this ability, am a 'demon'?"
"That's why you didn't go back to find me back then, and you didn't want to see me, right?"
Her gaze was intense.
"No!"
This time, Zhang Lingyu didn't hesitate or consider anything further, saying decisively, "I've never thought of it that way!"
"I just..."
"only……"
He lowered his head.
"Alright, I know. It's just that your long-held wish has been shattered because of my ability. You don't want to blame me, but you can't help but blame me, right?"
"No! I don't blame you!"
Zhang Lingyu suddenly looked up: "I only blame myself; my cultivation is insufficient!"
That is indeed the truth. Even now, when he is lying on top of Xia He in an extremely ambiguous position, he can still resist her power.
"If I practiced my cultivation more diligently..."
"None of this will happen!"
"Oh? Is that so?"
Xia He smiled, then suddenly grabbed his collar and, with a sudden burst of strength, kissed his lips...
"Huh?!"
Zhang Lingyu's eyes widened.
Feeling the long-lost warmth, he felt a surge of fire erupt from his lower dantian, rushing straight to the top of his head and churning wildly in his Niwan Palace...
My mind is gradually becoming muddled...
He couldn't hold back any longer!
……
……
One hour later.
"That's strange, where did Junior Uncle go? He's not answering his phone, and his plane is about to take off..."
Inside the airport terminal, two Taoist priests were as anxious as ants on a hot pan, their faces full of worry.
My junior uncle disappeared in the time it took him to go to the restroom, and he hasn't come back yet...
"Has something happened?"
"But with Junior Uncle's abilities, what trouble could possibly happen to him in Tianjin?"
The two looked at each other in bewilderment.
Fortunately, a familiar figure came into their view the next moment. It was Zhang Lingyu, who had just passed through security and entered the hall.
"Junior Uncle, where have you been?"
"What happened?"
The two quickly ran over.
"No, it's nothing, I just ran into an old friend and we caught up..."
Zhang Lingyu's expression was somewhat dazed, not because of the passion just now, nor because of Xia He's ability, but because he had finally faced his own heart.
Just like Xia He always thought of him...
He has never let go of it.
In his view, what happened back then was entirely his own fault; he was still young and immature...
He couldn't withstand the blows of his spiritual practice.
They also failed to deliver on their promise.
After this experience, he has figured out many things and resolved many of the knots in his heart. Just now, he was preparing to take Xia He back to the mountain to make up for everything that had happened in the past.
To his surprise, Xia He said with a serious expression, "I really want to go with you, but not now. I have things to do..."
"I will not let you be disgraced because of me..."
"I will leave Quanxing!"