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As a powerful trump card in their own camp, Marshal Black also knew that Jeanne Alter usually cherished Fafnir very much and would never let Fafnir go out for ordinary matters, let alone let Fafnir go out alone.
"And... has Fafnir lost control!?"
The Black Marshal widened his already bulging eyes even further, as if they might pop out at any moment, and suddenly clutched his head.
"Oh!!! De! What happened to you while you were gone!?"
"Could it be!? Could it be that they've harmed you again!?"
Fafner's control has been broken, and there are only two possibilities in this situation.
First, Jeanne Alter voluntarily released herself from control, but that's clearly impossible.
Regardless of whether Jeanne Alter likes Fafnir or not, given Fafnir's formidable fighting prowess, it's impossible for her to give him up easily.
Therefore, it can only be the second one: Jeanne Alter encountered a situation where she could no longer maintain the ability of the 'Dragon Witch'.
Regardless of the circumstances under which this crucial ability of Jeanne Alter could be lost, let's leave it at that.
In the eyes of the Black Marshal, Jeanne Alter must have suffered some terrible injury, and may even be dead.
The Black Jeanne he painstakingly resurrected has just died like that!?
Well, although he might not be dead yet, he's definitely not going to be alright.
How could Marshal Black accept this? He went completely insane.
"Damn it, Flamsey! Damn this world! How heartless are you to hurt her again and again!"
I curse you! I curse this world!
"If God truly exists!! Sirs de Rais! At this moment! I will launch a rebellious attack against this damned god!"
The Black Marshal's veins bulged all over his body as he roared to the sky, his eyes filled with madness.
He pulled out his treasure, an evil grimoire bound in human skin, containing the knowledge of the destruction of ancient evil gods, the Snail Annihilation City Textbook.
This was a gift from his friend, François Plelatti.
He originally came out to find this friend, but now he can't wait any longer!
Chapter 284: Guiding Jeanne Alter, Affection Level Increased!
Maren and the others were unaware of what was happening on Marshal Black's side.
Most of Gudako's group had already arrived in a nearby city and begun to investigate.
However, things didn't go smoothly at first, and there was no news about the 'sage'.
But the group did not give up. After asking around in one city, if they didn't find anything, they continued to the next city.
They weren't in a hurry until Marne returned from scouting the enemy.
As for Marne, they're almost at Orleans.
Seeing that the time was right, Jeanne Alter could no longer hold back and reached out to push Marne.
"Hey, wake up, we're almost there."
After being shaken for a while, Marx and Eng finally woke up slowly.
Upon opening his eyes, Ma En was slightly taken aback to see the somewhat resentful look in Jeanne Alter's eyes.
He didn't pay much attention to it, sat up, and looked around through the car window.
"We've arrived, ah~ ha."
Ma En stretched and then turned to look at Jeanne Alter.
"Is there something you need? Do you need to use the restroom?"
He didn't know why Black Jeanne was feeling resentful, only assuming that she had been sitting in the car for too long and was feeling a bit stifled.
Jeanne Alter blushed slightly upon hearing this: "That's not how it is! Can't you be a little more tactful?!"
She paused for a moment, then said, "It's about yesterday. I have some questions for you."
"Well, you ask."
Jeanne Alter hesitated for a moment before continuing, "About my memories, were they all false?"
She had thought about this question seriously as soon as she got up this morning.
She discovered with some dismay that almost all of her memories were vague and unclear.
From birth to adulthood, he doesn't even remember what his family members look like.
The only relatively clear memory is of meeting Giles and fighting alongside him.
This made Black Jeanne somewhat frightened, but also almost believe Marne's statement.
Her memories were transferred to her by someone else, and that person was none other than the Black Marshal who resurrected her, or rather, created her.
This left her feeling somewhat bewildered.
After all, anyone who suddenly finds out that they are a fictional person who never existed would not be at peace.
Seeing the look of utter disbelief on her face, Ma En pondered for a moment and said, "It's fake, but it's also real."
Black Jeanne was stunned. She had been prepared to accept the worst answer, but she didn't expect Marne to give such an answer.
"The reason I say it's fake is because it's not your memory at all."
"There's no problem in saying it's true, because these memories do exist, but they are Giles's memories."
"He made a wish to the Holy Grail, and with a heart full of anger as his foundation, he 'resurrected' a Joan of Arc, the ideal Joan of Arc in his heart, which is you now."
"Your memories, your hatred and anger towards Flandre, were all imposed on you by him at that time."
"So you are not a living person, but an Alter individual of a Heroic Spirit."
"While the Holy Grail has the power to resurrect people, it cannot fully resurrect those who have become Heroic Spirits and are already on the Throne of Heroes."
"In addition, Gilles, whose eyes were already blinded by the rage of revenge, added some 'personal interpretations' when he wished for resurrection. It was not a direct resurrection of the original Joan of Arc. The Holy Grail created you, an Alter individual that Joan of Arc could not have originally existed."
Marne rambled on and on, all looking at Jeanne Alter, who was deep in thought.
"I said this, do you understand?"
"..."
After pondering for a while and processing this information, Black Jeanne looked up at Marne.
"Are you saying I was just a fictional character? I didn't actually exist?"
Maren nodded: "Your understanding is fine, but does it matter?"
"Isn't this important?" Zhen lowered her head, feeling somewhat dejected.
It turns out she was just a fictional character.
She simply couldn't accept this!
However, she also understood that what Maren said was true.
She compared her circumstances when she was born with her current situation and her memories, and found that everything matched up.
No matter how much she resists, she can't change this fact.
"Just because you're a fictional character, someone who couldn't possibly exist, does that mean you shouldn't live?"
Maren shrugged: "So, these things are important, and understanding the cause and effect helps you better understand yourself."
"I mean, I want you to stop doing those kinds of things, because that means you're being used by others, but at least from now on, you can make your own judgments and choices about what to do."
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"It's not important, and it really isn't important. You are right here, alive and well. You are a real being. No matter why you were born, that cannot be changed. You are what you are."
“I am also an Alter individual, a reversed King Arthur, so she doesn’t care why she became an Alter individual.”
"Because she is a being with free will, she can think and make choices, so she is a real and independent being. Even if others deny her, they cannot change the fact that she is who she is, a different King Arthur."
"You too, don't worry too much, just be yourself."
Upon hearing this, Jeanne Alter's eyes gradually regained their luster.
She listened to everything Maren said.
... .. ..
Yes, this matter isn't actually that important.
Whatever the reason, it doesn't change the fact that she is who she is.
Since she exists now, it doesn't matter whether she was originally fictional.
Aren't all the choices she's making now expressions of free will?
For a moment, the way Jeanne Alter looked at Marne began to change.
Suddenly, she realized that noticing Ma En's existence back then was perhaps the greatest stroke of luck in her life.
If she hadn't paid attention to Maren, she wouldn't have acted rashly, wouldn't have fallen into Maren's hands, and wouldn't understand so many things now.
Thinking back to the state she was in before, where she was controlled by anger that wasn't her own, Jeanne Alter couldn't help but feel fortunate.
Although she has lost her powers, she has gained a new life.
Yes.
After understanding everything and having her thoughts clear, Jeanne Alter felt as if she had been reborn.
Originally blinded by rage, they now found themselves in an unprecedented state of tranquility.
Looking at Marx and Eng in front of him, the more he looked at them, the more pleasing they seemed to him, and gradually, his gaze changed.
If this were a visual novel, Ma En would probably be receiving a notification by now.
Jeanne Alter's affection for you +1
Jeanne Alter's affection level towards you +n
Unfortunately, that's not the case.
Seeing that Black Jeanne seemed to have figured things out, Ma En couldn't help but smile slightly.