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He was a heavy smoker, going through three packs a day.
These are all problems from his past life.
Although most of my flaws have been corrected in this life, some deep-rooted habits are still hard to eradicate.
He simply couldn't tell Su Xiyue these things with a reasonable excuse.
With a soft sigh, Gu Qing shook his head and looked at Su Xiyue again, saying, "I'm giving you a heads-up now."
"I'm not as good as you think, and I might even be worse and more extreme than you imagine."
"I have some mental issues, and no one can guarantee what I might do in the future."
“I know you might not feel anything if I tell you this now, but I have an obligation to inform you in advance.”
Gu Qing looked at Su Xiyue with a very serious expression.
The girl's eyes showed obvious surprise.
A smile had uncontrollably spread across her pretty face.
She seemed to understand what Gu Qing wanted to say.
Gu Qing continued, "I can try to work with you for a while and get to know each other better."
"But during this period, we must keep it a secret from the outside world, especially from our family and relatives, because we are a blended family. Regardless of whether the adjustment is smooth or not, it will inevitably cause turmoil, which is something I absolutely do not want to see right now!"
169. To give one's all after careful consideration!
Inside the living room, the light shone on Su Xiyue's fair face.
The girl was pretty and already had a fairly large bust.
Sometimes Gu Qing couldn't help but sigh that the physiological knowledge he had gained in his previous life was not very useful in this one.
Putting aside the fact that men experience pain during their first time, the speed at which the girl develops is already far beyond Gu Qing's comprehension.
Gu Qing is not a saint; he cannot remain indifferent to a tall, cheerful, and beautiful girl who is constantly by his side.
Some people may think that Su Xiyue is not good enough for him.
After all, in those people's eyes, Gu Qing was stunningly beautiful, had an outstanding temperament, and was both talented and learned.
But Gu Qing never considered himself to be a prodigy.
In his previous life, he had already realized that he was an ordinary person.
Even if he were reborn, he would not consider himself a genius.
Therefore, I worked extra hard in my childhood in order to cultivate good habits for myself.
These good habits have shaped Gu Qing into who she is today.
Without the advantage of being reborn, Gu Qing would probably just be a good-looking but otherwise ordinary young man.
His childhood experiences might have led him to an even worse state now.
Because she had a good understanding of herself, Gu Qing never felt that Su Xiyue was not good enough for her.
It was only because of the ingrained beliefs from his past life, coupled with complicated family relationships, that he was both tolerant and indulgent towards Su Xiyue, yet also exercised a degree of self-restraint.
"We can try it for a while."
Under the lamplight, Gu Qing frankly shared her thoughts.
"If it's appropriate, we'll work together to figure out what to do next, whatever it may be."
"But if it doesn't work out, we can part amicably, and as long as it's kept confidential, Aunt Su's relationship with my father won't be affected in any way."
As Gu Qing spoke, Su Xiyue's eyes lit up with excitement. She moved her lips as if to say something, but then swallowed her words.
“You may think I’m overthinking things, but that’s just who I am. I can bet myself on you, but I can’t include my father in that.”
Gu Qing spoke with utmost seriousness.
It's less like a romantic relationship and more like a contract.
Gu Qing had never been in a relationship, couldn't figure out how to date, and thought about things a lot.
He didn't want to avoid the girl's feelings for him, or the special place she held in his heart.
It was for this reason that Gu Qing came up with his own methods and theories.
After all, no one says that love can't be like this.
Impulsive romance is no longer a thing of the past for Gu Qing.
It's not that Su Xiyue isn't worth his impulsive actions, but since things can go smoothly and they can move forward hand in hand, why create trouble out of nowhere?
Gu Qing didn't want a melodramatic love story, with all the breakups and reconciliations, and all sorts of misunderstandings.
Two people, three meals a day, and peace throughout the world—that's the best life.
He didn't know if the girl could accept this kind of relationship.
But that's just how he is, and he won't change.
Su Xiyue looked at the serious expression on Gu Qing's face.
If it weren't for what he said, most people would probably think that Gu Qing wasn't talking about love or relationships, but rather about other serious matters.
But the more Gu Qing is like this, the more charming she becomes.
From the very first moment she truly met Gu Qing, Su Xiyue knew that Gu Qing was definitely not an ordinary boy.
She went from initially being attracted to Gu Qing by his looks to now being deeply fascinated by his inner qualities.
Gu Qing was always so serious, very composed. Although her eyes were charming, they were full of confidence and she was never confused.
Gu Qing might not be good at acting coquettish, and she rarely even acts shy, so it might be difficult for her to experience the joy of being a strong woman who is tolerant of a younger man.
Girls may like boys who admire them, as this greatly boosts their self-esteem and vanity.
But these are things that Gu Qing might find hard to experience.
However, Gu Qing will give girls a great sense of security, tolerance, and pride.
The sense of security comes from Gu Qing's character. Although he is handsome and attracts attention, he is very tactful in his interactions with everyone.
To this day, Su Xiyue has never seen any girl get particularly close to Gu Qing, except for her!
The sense of tolerance comes from Gu Qing's thoughtfulness and understanding.
Unlike other young boys, Gu Qing is not petty and narrow-minded; he is calm and composed in the face of adversity.
Perhaps there's a lack of jealousy and rivalry, but it will envelop her like water, allowing her to feel its warmth.
With all these qualities, how could she not feel proud to be Gu Qing's girlfriend?
Although Su Xiyue often felt inferior when facing Gu Qing.
But Gu Qing always managed to understand her when the time was right.
Gu Qing is really good at taking care of people's feelings.
Su Xiyue could say without hesitation that, if it were a romantic relationship, Gu Qing might not be a suitable partner for any girl other than herself.
But if it's marriage, then Gu Qing is definitely a perfect husband and father!
Su Xiyue didn't know what the sweetness of love was like, but she knew she absolutely couldn't miss Gu Qing.
Having lost her father at a young age, she often reminisces about him, and she admits that she finds her father's shadow in Gu Qing.
No, it should be said that Gu Qing is even more perfect than her father.
If her father knew, he would definitely tell her to hold onto Gu Qing and never let go.
Su Xiyue had originally prepared herself for a long-term war of attrition during her university years, and her original plan was to gradually and subtly make herself the most important person in Gu Qing's life.
But to her surprise, when Gu Qing realized something was wrong, his decisiveness shocked her.
There was no indecisiveness, no twists and turns.
Some people only spent a few days figuring out their inner needs before telling her without hesitation!
At that moment, Su Xiyue truly felt that Gu Qing's eyes were sparkling with the most dazzling starlight in the entire universe.
Sure enough, this only made Gu Qing more and more captivating to her.
……
"So, this is my thought. Are you still willing?"
Gu Qing looked at Su Xiyue with a sincere expression and spoke earnestly.
His approach to dating is very simple.
Be honest about your thoughts and express your concerns.
Language exists for communication; it doesn't want to drag things out with games like guessing games.
He had feelings for Su Xiyue, but he also had many concerns.
Now that it's finally out in the open, I feel a huge sense of relief.
It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and I felt much lighter all over.